be bold and brassy. stop being embaressed about everything i say and do or don't say and do. shotgun the motion, run with the winter, be pleased to feel what i feel without analyzing whether i should or shouldn't feel what i feel, whether it's silly or i'm silly or maybe i have a smudge on my face and maybe i was a fool and maybe i should have said something or said something different. enjoy. relish whatever and take whatever and make more than whatever and be satisfied and patient and bold and sensitive but not oversensitive. stop letting my head get ahead of me, since afterall the head is perched atop of me, and shouldn't be allowed to totter away like a baby grand on a california hillcrest. revel. look daily at everything i've achieved or been lucky to receive without achievement. be content but not complacent and stop coming home and smacking myself on the forehead with the palm of my hand and ranting around the room saying what what what and why. trust. mellow out on calling my gurus and sounding like a puppy that sees only the moon. take a little pride. but only a little. relax. not overdo, be dramatic, be melodramatic, take myself too seriously, take everyone else too seriously, pretend, oversee, worry. relax.

now i will go finish grading essays.