....eyes have a magnanimity to cameras...

It's small, but it made me happy.


1. I hate being sick.

1b. It is yucky and annoying.
1b. Plus it seems to eat the weekends away.

1c. And this one was a larger one to eat away.

1d. Which pisses me off even more.

2. The thing about ending your dating relationship with your local best friend is that you discover you have few local best friends to lean on.

2b. Maybe just one.

3. Nobody to bring you tea, or call and ask how you are.

4. And she's only in the right to tell you she's too busy.

5. And so you have to do your work.

6. But you still feel fevery, coughy and bleary.

7. So it's even less fun than it could be otherwise.

8. And when your closest non-local best friend calls, you feel impatient and cranky.

8b. You worry about this becoming the norm.

9. And then you keep reading about the GOP cutting funding for Planned Parenthood, and NPR, and PBS.

9b. And trying to redefine rape.

9c. So they can force rape victims to bear their rapists' children.

9d. Who would now have no healthcare, Sesame Street, or food programs at school to help nourish them.

10. Which makes you want to destroy things.

11. Which makes you even more fevery, coughy and bleary.

12. So you remind yourself you ordered seeds. Lots and lots of seeds.

13. And they should be coming soon.

14. So should spring.

15. And you're going to take a trip this summer.

16. With your dog.

17. And your computer.

18. And so you shouldn't be cranky about working.

19. Or worried about your perpetual inability to form a nurturing and sustained romantic relationship.

19b. Or upset that your friendships with your closest best friends are strained or shifting.

19c. Or furious at the idiots who are given power in this country.

19d. Or down on yourself for not writing enough.

19e. Or guilty for not having walked your dog this week.

19f. Or guilty for not having spent enough time on your students' work.

20. Plus the cold is going to go away sooner rather than later.

21. And the current GOP will rot in hell.

21b. As will their legislation.

22. And you'll finish all the work just in the nick of time.

23. And one day write marvelous and impressive things.

24. So all is fine, really.

24b. Or at least that's the moral I'm sticking to.