n. infantile pattern of suckle-swallow movement in which the tongue is placed between incisor teeth or between alveolar ridges during initial stage of swallowing (if persistent can lead to various dental abnormalities) v. [content removed due to Bush campaign to clean up the internet] n. act of nyah-nyah v. pursuing with relentless abandon the need to masticate and thrust the world into every bodily incarnation in order to transform it, via the act of salivation, into nutritive agency

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

phew

i felt bad today. the swings again. i went to the docks and walked two feet past a mother seal and her baby. i felt a little better. evening on the dock.

phhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhw. deep breath. people not related who love all of me: ellen, sarah, natalie, ehban, selah, peter, lambert, annie too, chuck, cow tranquilizers.
Posted by: bezdomnik / 3:00 PM
Comments:
oh my dear but some of us love you so.

and it sucks and it hurts but a year is only a year and it will hurt less and less with every year that passes.

and you have to remember that she is small potatoes and will never amount to anything because she lacks integrity.

same goes for your teacher.

and even on your worst day, you are bigger and better and stronger and more beautiful than they will ever be.

and I like your haircut, too.

--Anne girl
# posted by Anonymous Anonymous : 8:28 PM
 
god, thank you annie. i was having a crapper of a day, and you can see that i took off the post, because sometimes i just need to put something up and then take it down but thank you. thank you. i love you.
# posted by Blogger bezdomnik : 12:18 AM
 
I found this quote that I thought fitting...
"When things fall apart and we're on the verge of we know not what, the test of each of us is to stay on that brink and not concretize. The spititual journey is not about heaven and finally getting to a place that's really swell...In difficult times,when inspiration has become hidden, when we feel ready to give up, this is the time when healing can be found in the tenderness of pain itself."
- Pema Chodron
Anyway, I'm glad your feeling better!
# posted by Blogger lollydancer : 2:19 AM
 
a good quote. i think the "really swell" makes it even better. i wonder sometimes how tender pain is though.
# posted by Blogger bezdomnik : 11:28 AM
 
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